We all think we’re amazingly smart. We don’t differentiate between intellectual knowledge and emotional or spiritual knowing. We strive to understand our feelings only to be pranked the next time we’re activated by an experience. There is no escaping these unforeseen moments, but what do we do with them?
As I age, one of the gifts is the ever-increasing body of personal knowledge based on experience(s). I am gifted with do-overs. I’m gifted with knowing when somethings is troubling me or challenging me and then I can take appropriate measures to wrestle with the experience.
We do we go for guidance? I don’t know about you, but in my younger days I thought I had all the answers. I was a bit of a know-it-all. As a therapist I was witness to clients repeatedly grappling with questions creating tension or unease in their lives. It wasn’t smart enough to do this for myself until I had somewhat of an existential crisis. Eight years of therapy opened my eyes to questions and answers I didn’t even know I had.
A few years ago, I decided to go to seminary. Many asked why I was embarking on this journey and the only answer I could summon was, it’s the next logical step to knowing myself. I completed seminary being ordained as an interfaith minister. One of the first questions I was asked after my ordination was, “What did you get out of seminary?” I loved this question because it allowed me to experience the one answer, “When I went into seminary, I knew everything, and when I came out, I knew nothing.”
The ‘’not knowing” gave me options. I provided and still provides me with opportunities to explore what I’m unsure of and what I want to know deeper. I followed this with beginning my own journey of spiritual direction. Finding someone who would in a loving way, challenge me and my assumptions.
So, the big questions are, “Where do we go for guidance?”, “What resources past and present do we have access to?” and “Who’s out there waiting for us to ask them a question?”
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